Things Keep Being Good
So…there are two new boys in my life. One I didn’t talk about before even though he existed, and the other is new. So we have: A. and I met him at JQY although I got to know him at a friend’s birthday party. He is away from the city for the summer, so that’s kind of why I didn’t include him. And now there is R. Israeli, attractive, funny, (FOREIGN) available and interested. Problem here is that he’s leaving for Detroit on Sunday, I think, and I won’t see him again until August something. And naturally I’m still pining over JT who has yet to return from Europe and who I’m certain is the key to my heart. J has gone back to Canada, and been transferred to another US job in Denver. I feel like I’m doing this because I never got to in highschool. Most people get to have their meaningless yet crucial relationships before their 21st birthday and so learn the appropriate ways in which to interact with a love another person. I however, new to my gayness, have to now do it all really quickly without ignoring the fact that I want LOVE and not short, lifeless interactions with strangers. When I was with J. it was strong like. Now that I’m talking to R. it’s medium like. But I want LOVE like what it was with L. And I fear I won’t see it again soon.
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